It's a problem, especially among the kids here who say you're okay, they're probably the ones who want to hang out but don't. Those kids are better off. It's because of the external conditions, and the things you pick up are evil, so if you change the wider society, you'll have friends. But honestly, you're different. You know, your friends don't take care of him, so he can't play with you. You're different. You can laugh and play outside, but that's the show. Don't you know how twisted it is to see people's enjoyment of pure human relationships as a "force to please each other"? They don't have empathy, they're high-profile lines. What's the matter with you? Don't cheat on yourself. You must have a problem, so go get some psychotherapy. At least the courage to see yourself right is necessary. That is the beginning of change. And if you want to get married, do that much.